Welcome to the 12th edition of the #beingamother project, with Zeyna from Mummy on My Mind taking the floor for this instalment. Do you believe motherhood is your greatest accomplishment? If the answer is yet, this post will hugely resonate with you as Zeyna explains why motherhood is – in her eyes – her greatest achievement…
I was the studious type. I got my As and A*s for most of my GCSEs. I researched my dissertation topic for months before actually writing it. I was generally always on top form when it came to education. So when I found out I was pregnant, I did the one thing that education taught me best. Research. I read all the books, the articles, the forums. I scouted high and low for the secret formulas to be the best mother I could possibly be. I would watch tips and tricks from other mothers on Youtube. I saved them and bookmarked them.
Then, motherhood happened. It was time to put to test all those hours of research and late night reading, and as you can imagine I did not excel like I was supposed to. Like all other first time mothers, I struggled, especially at the beginning.
It took some time. But I gradually learnt that motherhood doesn’t come from doing your research. It comes from the heart. Because no matter how many Youtube videos you’ve watched of changing a baby’s nappy, or swaddling them to sleep, your baby always seems to have other (very different) plans! Yes, I found myself crying at 3 am because breastfeeding just hurts so damn much, but months later it was also the most cherished bond I shared with my baby.
Nothing I read truly prepared me for motherhood. The role that asks one to sacrifice, love, protect and SO much more like no other. I also know that I won’t ever excel at motherhood, because let’s be honest, that isn’t ACTUALLY possible. But hey, I’m ok with that. Because I am a mother, and a mother gets to see the excitement of a child when he/she discovers something new.
A mother gets to love abundantly, without feeling greedy. A mother makes plenty of mistakes and sheds tears of frustration and anguish. A mother gets to worry, constantly. A mother has to sacrifice, always. A mother gets to experience the best cuddles. I am a mother, it is the biggest achievement of my life, and it’s better than any A* grade I have ever received.