I feel I need to set the record straight. Almost two years ago I started this blog because I felt there were so many things about motherhood, and being parents in this day and age, that just weren’t being talked about openly enough. In those two years however, the net has been blown wide open and there are so many incredible bloggers who have also stepped up to talk about motherhood, fatherhood, and parenthood openly. Which is nothing short of incredible.
This is not some vanity project. I often hesitate five, ten even twenty times before publishing the posts which were the most difficult to write. The posts that leave me absolutely exposed, that share my inner most thoughts and feelings. Sure, there is a part of me that is trying to work through this all with you, dear reader. But really, it’s because I know there are other people out there who must be feeling the same as me about any given topic, at any moment in time, who are struggling to make sense of their own thoughts and feelings, let alone communicate them to another being. Most recently, this was about my ongoing only child conundrum.
I know this might mean that I might be unpopular with some, or perhaps ungrateful to those who know me. But it’s a risk I’m willing to take for the greater good, for the knowledge that others who might be grappling with the very same issues, thoughts and feelings as me might not feel alone.
Time after time this has been confirmed by some of the incredible comments and thanks I have received from you, the reader. From you, who follow me on social media. Those words are golden to me and outweigh some of the disapproval I receive over time. They light up my life when I receive them, and let me know it’s not all in vain. That there is somebody out there to whom my words have made a difference.
It would be so much easier to keep my thoughts to myself wouldn’t it? To pretend like everything in the garden of parenthood was rosy. To just get on with the job of the gardener, and stop asking questions, just crack on with pulling up the weeds, to stop asking myself and those around me why or how. I am not that type of gardener, so fire me if you must.
This is not a popularity contest. This is life. This is true emotion, these are pure thoughts. With the media continuing to present such a warped view of life, the only voices which can be counted are those of you and me, are not those of the reporters with an agenda, but those who speak from the heart.
And my promise to you is, I will continue to speak from the heart, to speak what is in YOUR heart, even if I ruffle a few feathers along the way, so help me.
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