I want to start this post by saying that I am really very lucky to be one of the growing numbers of mothers working from home. I get to to the school drop off and pick up, be there for my daughter, set my own agenda and for the most part….feel fulfilled.
But recently there has been a growing sense of loneliness creeping up on me
and I’m wondering whether this is something other mothers working from home are experiencing too.
But the questions is, why has this been a feeling that has only come about in the last month or two? I guess some of that has been to do with my daughter moving into year 1 and the dynamic shift that has brought with it as a school mum. When she was at reception, we were really lucky to have a more relaxed drop off and pick up, and there was plenty of time for social interaction either side. Now going into year 1, the drop off and pic is A LOT BUSIER and well, it feels more about survival. By the time you have found where the heck your class line is and seen them into the classroom, you rush back to be back at your desk and get on with your day.
There is no time for pleasantries and chit chat, and even if you wanted to chat in the playground being able to find the people you want to chat to in the scrum is like trying to find the person you want to spend the whole night dancing with in a crazy busy club.
And so back I go to my desk and I work
And I am silent for hours on end, just me, myself and I…without any interaction..until pick up when it is more of the same and where I might – if I’m lucky – bump into a friendly face and have a chat.
I felt that I was shrinking and that this just wasn’t healthy. We humans need social interaction. Women need it more than anything. And so I realised I needed to mix things up. I needed to go out for a walk after lunch rather than continuing to hammer on and on at my keyboard as the world goes by outside without noticing I’m here.
Just being outside and connected to the world shifts the dynamic beyond words
Because the more I’m inside by myself, the more I want to be inside by myself. Before I know it, I’m going to develop full blown agoraphobia. Yesterday I took action and actually hauled myself to work in a co-working space and although the millennial banter totally did my head in (and made me wonder how on earth they got ONE IOTA OF WORK DONE!), I felt alive, part of society’s fabric….not just a work at home recluse.
I’ve realised I need to get out and connect with people
to feel fulfilled in this work at home mum juggle. And that’s severely lacking at the moment. I’m going to make a point to get out even when I have no reason to. I’m going to take myself along to networking events just so I can have a conversation that doesn’t involved number bonds, reading homework and bake sales.
I need to do this before I go stir crazy. And I’m wondering whether out of all the mothers working from home, if I’m the only one feeling this way, or if we are collectively going slowly mad and becoming more and more isolated within the confines of our four walls….
I’m going to start making an effort to wake myself up
to get out there, and make some connections. Because if life isn’t about connecting with others, what is it about after all?
Are you one of the growing number of mothers working from home? Can you relate to the above? Do share in a comment below and let me know I’m not alone!!