I remember being in the thick of the terrible twos, wondering what I had let myself into and hearing time and time again – “don’t worry, they’ll be off to school before you know it”. Fast forward two years and that reality is now hitting me over the head with an almighty wallop…my daughter is starting school in September.
Even as I write those words it sounds ridiculous. She has been attending the school nursery in the mornings for the last year but a whole day at school? Until 3pm? A life where day to day she will be spending more time out of the house than in the house, away from her family unit….how did that come around so fast?
Of course, I know this is a selfish response. She is so ready for it, so excited for it, so primed to learn, grow and flourish at that new level. It’s my own stupid ego that’s getting in the way. Yet I can’t help having that knee jerk reaction to spend as much quality time with her before that day rolls around all too soon – even though I know we already have SO much quality time…and because of my work set up probably more than most…but it’s like my brain has switched into an overdrive of wanting to create memories while we still have that care free time….much like my pre-pregnant self wanted to go on a massive almighty bender for months on end to “get it all of my system”.
But as I sat in that school hall one evening of late, listening to the introductory talk for Reception parents – as well as feeling all eager, inspired and nervous as only a new school parent can – I couldn’t help but feel so emotional as the growing up train continued to speed down the track to the next station in life with everything else around it whizzing by so fast.
I guess the fact she is an only child intensifies everything so much – I know that every new exciting stage I witness will only be a one-time only opportunity but if there’s one thing that really forces me to do it’s to be in the moment and relish every single bit of it – nerves, emotions, excitement and all.
This time in September, she’ll be starting on an amazing and thrilling new journey. She’ll be starting school. And although I can’t wait to watch from the sidelines and support her where she needs it, I can’t but help feeling like I’ll be loosing another little bit of her when I kiss her goodbye at the school gates in those weeks to come, and feeling a bit wobbly about it all.
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