Can somebody please stop the growing up train? Because here’s the thing…the growing up is going way too fast for my liking! The picture above was taken four years ago yet it literally feels like I have blinked and here we are…..
I have to admit – there have been many times when I wished that “this phase would just pass” – the endless night’s of a crying baby, the fearsome tantrums of the toddler years. But now we’re through all of that and we’ve finally reached the golden age of childhood as being a five year old is commonly referred to – I want to slam on the growing up breaks! I want a serious growing up speed restriction to be enforced because the rate at which everything is passing is just quite frankly making my head spin.
Because here we are at a new school year, with the joyous reception year now behind us, looking year 1 in the face, with E having turned five over the summer. I’m just not ready for things to get serious yet. I’m not ready for another step to be taken towards growing up and that loss of innocence. I know we have a good few years left of it before the dramas will begin, but it all feels like one of those crazy cuckoo clocks that has gone out of control in the cartoons – with the hands of time whizzing past uncontrollably.
Just like I can’t stop the train which is hurtling me towards 40 – nor can I stop the growing up train that is whizzing my daughter through childhood, passing through milestone upon milestone at break neck speed at a million miles an hour into the horizon of her future.
This is the bitter sweet agony of watching your children grow up all too fast when the memory of them laid upon your breast, bleating and blood-stained on the day they were born feels like only yesterday, years on. When those hours spent snoozing all day and crying all night feel like a blurry lifetime ago.
Today I wave off my darling daughter to year 1, tomorrow I will be waving her off for her first solo car trip, or sobbing because I realise the house is empty because she has left to go to university.
Of course I know there will be many, many moments – both good and bad in-between as the train continues to rush past like a high speed bullet; but I will do everything in my power to slow down and enjoy what we have moment by moment, because I know I can’t stop this growing up train, and neither can she.
Five years on those words that irked the hell out of me when offered in kindness during those baby days “Enjoy them while they can because they grow up so fast” have finally hit home.
I know that in a blink of an eye, I will be wondering where those childhood days went and I’ll be wondering how on earth my little superhero grew up so fast. And what’s more, I know I won’t be alone. Because we will all be sat there wondering the same thing, won’t we?
Do you wish someone could stop the growing up train? Do leave and comment and share how you feel about the passing of childhood and let me know if you are also feeling like this at the start of the new school year (and perhaps every year!).